endev42 - documenting the meaning of life

To be thrown into your inner world, no by choice, but by the confrontations from both the outer & the inner voices.  For example, from the poet who says “There is nothing so rare as act of your own” or from a tragedy that engulfs you into darkness & confusion.  In my case it is the death of JFK.

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There is a desperation of a black cloud that allow you to experience the paths of the mundane state of just existing—Panic.  The journey into the deep world of avoidance.  Another quate “An unexamined life isn’t worth living” or “follow your bliss”.  In the midst of all of this—I found this hidden spark of my true self—my “souls code” as it were.  My DNA—a named Zuzya said this on his death bed “In the world to come, I will not be asked, why I was not Moses, I will be asked, why was I not Zuzya.”